I apparently deleted my first post. Luckily I found it (thanks to
Deanna‘s comment). Here’s what I wrote:
I have been in post-secondary school for nearly a decade. I come from a family where completing post secondary education is put on a pedestal. So, for almost a decade, I have been doing nothing but figuring out what I want to do when I grow up. When I finally chose nursing, there was a feeling of both excitement and sadness. I was excited to finally be studying something where my classes actually had a direct purpose in my future career. However, I was sad that my “college lifestyle” would eventually be coming to an end. Nonetheless, the time has come and I have finally graduated. So now what?
Well, I went on vacation with my family as a grad present/I need to relax/I want to travel. I will be honest, we were in an all-inclusive resort and anyone who has been in one knows it’s a cushy life (whether its a 3 or 5 star resort). Despite being sad to leave my boyfriend at home and go on a family trip, I felt I really needed to decompress and be on a nice beach in the Carribean (technically the Atlantic, can you figure out where I went?). I got on the plane both excited and nervous. All I could think about was “when was the last time I went on a trip with my parents?!?!”
Well, it turned out to be a very interesting trip. Of all the all-inclusive, cushy, beach-y trips I’ve been on (not that I’ve been on a lot), this was probably the only one where I actually enjoyed the culture as well as the resort. The hospitality on this island was unreal. Of course, tourism is where a lot of their money come from. Now back to the culture. Yes yes, this island has lots of interesting history and it took our tour guide 3 hours to only give a SparkNotes version of their history.
However, the culture is something I could get on board with. I’ve been fortunate to get to see and hear about many countries and cultures. At the end of the day, I love latin culture and music. It speaks to me. Another thing I love is how much they love women. Now, this island in particular didn’t seem to objectify women they way other countries do. They just seemed to love women – short, tall, skinny, thick, blonde, brunette, black, white, purple. It simply didn’t matter, if they thought you were cute, they wouldn’t be afraid to tell you. I love that. So, when one guy made more of an effort than the others, I let him boost my ego up a bit if you know what I mean ;).
Now you’re probably wondering “But you have a boyfriend!”. This is true. I love him and I’m not a 10/10 gorgeous super model, but he knows that guys still try me and he knows I would never cheat on him. So, let me get back to the ego boosting guy I was speaking about. He left a mark on me after we said goodbye. At first I was thinking “aw yeah. Still got it.” But then I realized that there was something else. There had to be reason I bumped into this guy. So I thought maybe God was trying to challenge me and test my relationship. It probably was, but it has been nearly a week and I just couldn’t figure it out. Until now.
I think I need to re-evalute my relationship and what my short-term and long-term goals are. All I can say is I need to travel.
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